To be totally honest with anyone reading out there, this isn’t my first go at yoga. In fact, it’s my 3rd or maybe 4th depending on how you look at it. About a year ago now, I had a really bad fall down the stairs. In fact, I was going up stairs to change so I could do my yoga to some videos recommended by a friend, but fate intervened. I tumbled down the stairs, hurting my knee and ankle on my right leg. At the time I didn’t think it was that bad but when I push myself a little too hard, I can still feel it in both. After that, I lost the enthusiasm and the momentum. Then, through work, they advertised a programme where I could do 4 beginner lessons for £10. I did it and loved the instructor and really enjoyed the experience. I felt pushed just the right amount. So, when that finished I moved to the main yoga class available through work. That had a rotation of instructors, one who was gentle and lovely and one where it felt more like an aerobics class. The aerobics class version wasn’t what I really wanted because I wanted the spiritual connection. When the gentle lady announced she was pregnant and would probably cut back her teaching, I quit the class.
Thankfully, after that maze of finding out what I liked and didn’t like in yoga, I have found the teacher of the first beginners course who I love and I am happily back working with her in a beginners class on Thursday nights. And I am loving it. I feel it gives me the best of the connection of body, mind, and spirit as well as feeling like I have really worked on my muscles. With her guidance, I think maybe I can move this into one of my zens. I also have realised that I struggled with the videos because it didn’t work for me trying to do it on my own. The impetus of having a class and a set weekly time with an instructor who helps me safely form the poses has really transformed the experience from one that was a chore to one that I now love.
I think one of the big experiments for me throughout this project is to really get in touch with myself again. Find out what is a chore and what isn’t and what might be a chore if done one way, but if done another way is completely enjoyable. This is a time of experimentation and try all those things that I thought I would like and to see if I actually do. It’s a time to move forward but do so in a contemplative way. Yoga has been a good thing to help me reconnect with my body and its needs which in all honesty, I have not thought about in quite some time.