This story is beginning to seem the same day in and day out. I try to do the mindfulness in the shower and fail. Today was absolutely no different. I have back troubles and end up getting a massage to work out my back tension. Today was a massage day and my body feels much better for it. But, during that time, I have to focus on my breathing. I do so much better in my massages than I do with the mindfulness meditation. I am not sure why though. Maybe it is the lack of someone speaking?
I have also tried the raisin meditation today. I had to focus on every aspect of both the raisin and eating it. I am ashamed to say that I seem to have felt similar feelings of those who felt absolutely ridiculous doing it. I felt really silly. I understand the principles behind the mindful eating, but I feel really weird doing it. I tried several times and tried very hard not to giggle at myself. That isn’t great. I need to focus on eating the food when I’m eating the food.
We also went to the garden centre. During the trip to the centre, I was very focussed on what we needed and my vision for my garden. That made me really proud of myself. Last year, when I started working on my garden, I couldn’t see what to do with it. Now, I have a complete vision on what to do and how. It is still a little haphazard with me just choosing things that I want and then laying them out when I get home, but I am pulling it all together and I think by next year it will look great. More importantly, when I am fixing up our garden, I am not thinking about anything else. I am focussed solely on making the garden beautiful. Ten years ago, I never would have considered myself a gardener. And in a million years, I never thought it would be something that would relax me, but here I am… a gardener.