Yesterday, we did end up going to see Hidden Figures at the cinema. It was brilliant. I wouldn’t say it was inspiring because I have no idea the kinds of obstacles they faced and I certainly have never faced anything like what they did but it was beautiful and magical. Those women were brave and courageous. They made amazing strides in their fields. I am jealous of their knowledge and ambition in their fields. I am jealous of their drive and knowing exactly where they wanted to go and they went for it. I wish I could do that too. I wish I had that drive. I wish I could see the path I wanted and just go for it. Anyway, it was a truly brilliant film.
Today, after my riding lesson, where I cantered again, instead of reading, I ended up being useful (taking back some trousers that didn’t fit) and getting myself a lunch at M&S and then while it was heating up, I played my video game all afternoon while watching documentaries. Okay, it wasn’t an afternoon of reading while the rain fell outside, but it still felt good. I love my Sundays of horseback riding and then a quiet afternoon. It is a nice come down before the work week ahead.
As I was driving around today to the stables and back and to M&S, I was still thinking through the question that my friend posed yesterday. What did I want to do with my life? Sure, it is probably already half over (or maybe even more), but it isn’t over yet. And I thought about how we discussed yesterday losing parents too young and all the things they didn’t do and how we learned from that. I have a little dream now. And it is something I think I would be good at but I don’t yet know how to approach it. Right now it is little more than a spark of inspiration. It has niggled before, but I put it down. This time, I intend to give it the attention it deserves and I deserve. This time, I will pay attention to my passions and to my wants. This time, I will be brave and bold, not afraid.